what the fuck!

im ready to end my life..... got nothing left to live for.

augh!

my life is so frustrating!!! i cant seem to do anything right and now i just look like a bigger idiot. so we started our hockey playoffs last week and ours is a 3 game series, so we were winning the first game but then barely lost in overtime. then we had our second game at home and again we were winning but then a defenseman took a stupid penalty and we lost in overtime. so now i, not having any ice time at all for the last few weeks, feel pathetic and unwanted. because its obvious that my coach has given up on me. he doesnt even try to tell me how to improve. i just hate being around him, i want to just give up and stop. in school today i wasnt doing my work so my teacher just freaks on me and tells me to get to work... few minutes later and im still not doing it, and he nearly moves me to a different spot, but my computer wasnt working, it didnt load the site we needed for atleast 10 minutes, but while it was loading i opened another tab and was reading some news (which loaded perfectly fine might i add) and he got pissed.  right now i just want to go die in a hole! just to end my life and stop it before it gets any worse.....