Starting Second Semester...

so, this is my second semester in grade eleven, and the first one sucked big time.... but i also had 4 core subjects so that was pretty bad. this semester should be better because i have two easy DLP courses, social, and then PE for 4 periods, two i am teaching elementary kids, the others i am in. so hopefully it will be easy flying from here on this year. hockey is going to be finishing up soon so thats good, but what really sucks at the end of every year, our team goes to Montana for a tournament, but this year they did it early for some stupid reason, so we arent even going to that.... and another thing that is dragging my attitude down too, is that some retard bought the soccer fields at the end of last year, and now he doesnt want us to play on it, so we might not have a team... it was sweet cause last year i was on the U-16 team, and even though our team sucked, me and two other guys got pulled up to play in the U-18 provincials for our town, which we won. so this year when i am actually a U-18 player, and our association was hoping to host provincials this year, we might not have a team... which is terrible because we are going to have a great team this year... anyways that was a fairly long post for me so ta-ta..... hopefully i have time to do this again... unless im am too depressed. =(

Post-Exam Period

hmm so i might have gotten lucky on that last exam and passed, but i dont think so. if i have to take that course again, i will be so pissed off... thats bio for those of you who didnt know. went to a friends house last night and played some green ghost at like 11, that was fun, but it was freezing and i just wanted to leave. lately ive been involved with my friends a lot, but i think thats just because they want me to be happy.... not gonna happen. i totally forgot i was supposed to work this morning and so i just slept in and went to a doctors appointment. the doctor was some indian man and i could barely understand him... he didnt help at all, just asked how id been feeling lately. what a waste of time. ive got a hockey game today, so i hope we can finally win another game and not lose, cause everytime we lose, my coach gets ticked at us. even me,  when i dont play... got a few days off school now, so hopefully i can catch up on some sleep...

My life as of now.

Well, hello anyone who bothers to read this... this is my first time blogging to forgive me if this is boring. right now i am actually fed up with life. ive had enough and i want out. i am going through final exams right now and my hardest one is tomorrow. im so screwed for it so i dont know what to do. i feel sick and tired all the time and i cant do anything about it. my parents dont know, they think i'm fine, but im not. ive considered a few ways to die, but i havent tried to follow through on them at all yet. im on a hockey team at our school, but i never get to play because i suck, i can barely skate, let alone stick handle at the same time. all my other friends are great at the sports they play, its just me who isnt good. i dont know whats gonna happen in my life in the next few days... if you have any advice for me, on what to do with my life or how to get out of this depression, please comment.