tired and depressed..

hmmm so i really am not doing good now. my whole life is slowly but surely dragging me down, i can barely keep up with it. i need to quit my job because i need more sleep (i work in the mornings), and hockey is nearly finished, less than a month, so if i do those two things then i should hopefully catch up a bit. i really just rely on my music to try and get me through this time.... and thats hard enough cause everyone talks to me so i cant listen at all. some good songs that im listening to are: headstrong by trapt, chop suey by system of a down, bully and second chance and breaking inside by shinedown, careless whisper by seether, scars and last resort by papa roach, i will not bow and breath and had enough by breaking benjamin. they are all pretty good songs. any other suggestions?

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so pretty much my life has just taken a dive off the deep end. i had a futsal game last week and got in a fight with my coach/goalie (its just an intramural team) and we are ticked at eachother now, not that i really care cause i never liked him anyways.... anyways lately ive had a lot of trouble sleeping. or rather getting up in the morning... i cant find the motivatoin to wake up at all. ive missed work a couple of times because of it and i hate it. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LEx-HYsmOQ8 this is a pretty good song to describe how i feel, i guess. i like to listen to my music, it helps me to express myself.

so bored....

today was a boring day. i actually did nothing today. woke up half an hour before class started, snapped my sack and got there in time. didnt say a word in any of my classes, just sat there pretending to listen. then i came home and listened to music from my ipod for a while, mostly three days grace i like them, and then watched some tv with my mom, she always watches jeopardy. then i came to the computer and thought i should write some more on this blog because it really lets me relax.

random....

so i had a busy day today. first i had school, my first day on my second semester, so i got to all my new classes no problem and found i have a fairly easy semester. first i have a 40 min bible class, with one of the best teachers so thats pretty fun i guess, not gonna have a huge homework load from that. then i have 40 min of forensic science by dlp so that will be simple, ill just finish real fast and then relax. after that i have 80 min of social, thats the worst, it is with the most annoying teacher ever, she thinks everybody likes her, but shes brutal. and she just got back from mat-leave. then lunch of course, and then i have 80 min of work experience at the elementary school with a friend teaching gym class, that will be kinda boring but we get to plan out all the games and such. then i have 80 min of actual gym class but it is with the same terrible teacher so hopefully it wont be too bad. but after all that today i had hockey practice, which got off to a bad start because our coach was ticked. then i had time to relax for about half an hour, and then i played futsal on my intramural team. that was the most depressing part. just so everyone knows... my futsal team sucks balls (its not very good), like we have played 3 games i think and lost all of them. i happen to be the best player on my team, except for one guy, but he never comes. so i scored twice today and somebody else scored once so we had our best game so far, but still lost 4-3.....